Alone

I am told it is unnatural

I am told it is abominable

I am told it is unreal

Their ignorant words offer me no comfort

They do not know what it is like in my head

They do not know how much strength I exert

Just to keep my fantasies in check

And you, you just sit there and you smile at me

You have no right to make me feel this way

You just tell me how much you enjoy being around me

You have no right to make me feel this way

I hate to see the way the light dances on your skin

I hate to see the stars in your eyes, it all feels like a sin

I hate it when you laugh at the stupid jokes I make

I know if I give in, it will be my heart that will break

I am told it is unnatural

I am told it is abominable

I am told it is unreal

Their condemning eyes are not solitude

They do not know what it's like to be in my skin

They would not see the purity, and only condemn it as crude

Just to say that are cleaner in the head

And you, you just sit there innocently watching

You have no right to make me feel this way

You have done nothing wrong, but you have done something

You have no right to make me feel this way

I hate to hear your voice when there is laughter in it

I hate to see you face when there is brightness in it

I hate it when you smile back at me

I know we can never ever be

I am told it is unnatural

I am told it is abominable

I am told it is unreal

Some Things Exist (That Should Not)

A formidable enemy stares at me from the depths of this mirror. I don't like her eyes, or the sly smile she wears, but I keep coming back, and she drinks it up like it's going out of style.
There is something attractive to her in my brokenness, something alluring in my emptiness, and she knows just how to draw me back into the Temple of Shame. She is the femme in me, and she is a royal pain.

Degeneration's Perpetuation

Degeneration perpetuation

Terrible affliction, confiscation!

They'll feed you their manufactured philosophies, intravenously!

They'll line you all up in a nice little row tell you the truth, maliciously!

Degeneration perpetuation

Keeping salvation in confusion!

They don't want you to be free

They don't want you to feel

They don't want you to see

They don't want you to feel alive!

Degeneration perpetuation

A conditional destruction!

They'll force their improper propaganda down your throat!

They'll be your friend as long you don't rock their boat!

Degeneration perpetuation

For volition's obliteration!

They don't want you to breath

They don't want you to know

They don't want you to love

They don't want you to know the truth!

Degeneration perpetuation

A meaningless absolution!

They'll train you up from birth to be a good parrot!

They'll do all that they can to undermine a zealot!

Degeneration perpetuation

For volition's obliteration!

From A Dream I Had Almost A Year Ago

To bring much light, where there wad once much darkness.

To bring much comfort where there was once much pain.

To bring much love where there was once much hate.

I will fill this place with light.

Expel all darkness,

Expel all pain,

Expel all hate.

I light the path to take,

You must love the light that takes away the dark.

The light is coming.

I am the light,

I am the comfort,

I am the love.

Will you set aside evil?

Would you set aside the wicked?

If you let me,

I will be your light.

If you let me,

I'll take away the wicked,

If you let me,

Let me.

To bring much light, where there wad once much darkness.

To bring much comfort where there was once much pain.

To bring much love where there was once much hate.

I will fill this place with light.

Expel all darkness,

Expel all pain,

Expel all hate.

Will put aside the evil?

For me?

To bring much light, where there wad once much darkness.

To bring much comfort where there was once much pain.

To bring much love where there was once much hate.

I will fill this place with light.

Expel all darkness,

Expel all pain,

Expel all hate.

Òseia Lantamaraè

Òseia Lantamaraè lùsia mino'eta Soiela.

Istell'et èsuia reamà uasì lùsia.

Samaèi meno'etèi uasì ràausia.

Istell Òmeia Lantamaraè nì'uria,

èsuia sìea lùsia se slaeia pelia Meno ea rausia.

TRANSLATION:

Òseia Lantamaraè was a queen of Soiela.

Fairest of her kin she was.

Many hearts of many kings she broke.

Fair Òseia Lantamaraè never wed,

her will was too strong for any one king to break.

Helluva Girl

She's one helluva girl

And when the fit hits the shan

I'll be glad to have her at my side

Her eyes are oh so bright and clear

Her smile's oh so sweet and wide

She's one helluva girl

She's the paragon of what a woman

Ought to be and everything I need

With a gun in one hand and a hammer in the other

She knows just how to make me burn with lover's greed

She's one helluva girl

She knows just what I like

And what I didn't know I did

I was crazy before I met her

But the strings of my heart she sure as hell undid

She's one helluva girl

She knows her way around

A gun and never loses her cool

She's got diamonds to mark her territory

She's made me her blathering little fool

She's one helluva girl

We've got a crazy mad love

And we're gonna build it up

Just like that Winchester House

I don't like being a slave to anyone

But I've started my own femme worship

She's one helluva girl

And when it's been seven years to the day,

Then I'll know she is the one for me

I'll be her jester and she'll be my clown

We'll turn each other's frowns upside-down

Volo (The Will)

If I want to slit my wrists

I will

If I want to froth in a fit

I will

If I want to draw a circle in my blood and semen

I will

If I want to dance with my own pretty demon

I will

If I want to burn in hell

I will

If I want to retreat in to my shell

I will

If I want to forget your face

I will

If I want to fall from grace

I will

Fiat voluntas mea in caelo et in inferno.

Southpaw Confessions

I never dreamt of taking it this far

But I think I know who you are

And my left-hand God doesn't think I am crazy

And my left-hand God knows what's up

(It's all gonna be alright)

I never dreamt of taking it this far

But I think we both wished on a star

And my left-hand God wants us to be happy

And my left-hand God knows what's best

(It's all gonna be alright)

There ain't no game a southpaw can't play

But I just don't feel right in the lightning's light

There ain't no god a southpaw won't pray to

But I think the hell-fire in your eyes is just alright

I don't mind getting your blood on me

If it means you can sleep easier

I don't mind wiping your tears away

If it means you can smile again

I don't mind holding you tight

If it makes you feel safe

I don't know what God you believe in

But my left-hand God knows your name!

But I know you believe in love

And nothing will stop me caring for you!

(It's all gonna be alright)

I don't know what God you believe in

But my left-hand God hears your voice!

But I know you believe in the sun

And I'll be damned if it don't shine on you!

(It's all gonna be alright)

Wendigo (213)

I can't think like any of you anymore

I can't see through your eyes anymore

So alone in this thing you call a soul

I can't seem to stop the bleeding

Bleaching bones and cutting up flesh

I can't seem to hide this feeling

I don't know just what I am anymore

I don't even know my own name anymore

So alive in this sickly sweet shower

I can't seem to hold back

A slave is all I want loving me

I can't seem to hold back

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

The head of the dog is an ornament of my domain

The scent of death is so sweet to me

The feeling of control is something I sustain

The look in his eyes is all I really need

I'll keep them young and fresh

With an alter made of flesh

I kneel before my God and weep

I wallow in the blood so deep

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

I can't look at them anymore

I can't speak to them anymore

So alone in this thing you call soul

I drink their spirits up like wine

Trophies of a lover's conquest

Upon smooth sacred flesh I dine

I don't even know what a human is

I don't even know what love is

So alive in this sickly sweet shower

All I know is the bleak emptiness

Christ is perfected in me

A savior for all mankind

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!

Wendigo!